Roasted Butterflies

Wow, does this heat wave suck...

...so do these butterflies. I hates them. Really. Why is it I had to go and fall in love? Ok, maybe it's more like like, but really! I can't take the thinking about him all the time. I can't stand it. I don't want to think about him. I don't want to feel some sort of way when he's out and I'm not.

I don't want another Mr. Anonymous. He was so cruel. It hurt so bad. I hate him. I hope New Girly fucks him over. It's not fair to New Boi. He doesn't deserve this. I don't want it.

Tears.

P.S. ~ Did I mention that this heat wave sucks?

Really?

So it's Thursday. We usually go to the Hookah bar on Thursdays. If you don't know what a hookah is, look it up. It's basically a way to smoke tobacco. Like, if you've ever seen Disney's Alice in Wonderland, and you see the Caterpillar, he's smoking that funky thing...that's a hookah. I think it's Turkish.

Anyway, I decided to do some research on the Hookah Vs. Cigarettes. This is what I found:

"Hookah contains nicotine, which is highly addictive
91% of weekly hookah smokers said they could not quit
Hookah smoke contains more than 4,000 chemicals
Men can become unfertile due to tobacco smoke
Pregnant women who smoke hookah are at high risk for low-birth-weight babies
The risk of gum disease is 5 times higher than that of non-smokers
Hookah smoke contains significantly high levels of arsenic, lead and nickel
Hookah contains 15 times more carbon monoxide than cigarettes
A single puff of hookah smoke lasts about twice as long as a cigarette puff
Sharing the mouthpiece can lead to diseases such as tuberculosis, mono, and hepatitis" (Article here: Ask Pat - Hot Topics: Hookah)

Now, I'm not sure if I believe this. Do you? Nicotine in a Hookah? And this page is saying it has more than cigarettes by volume? Really?? Really?! And 100-200 puffs an hour?? I mean, what, you never take it out of your mouth? Really? And 91% of weekly users say they CAN'T quit??? I've never felt that way and I have an addictive personality!! And tuberculosis?? Don't you know if your friends have that? Really? Are you sharing with strangers? That's gross! And you can get mono from sharing a glass of water, so give me a break!

Yeah, really, I don't know how I feel about this, but I know I feel some kind of way. Maybe I need to do more field research. I'll go tonight and let you know.

Why am I not asleep?

It might have just hit me that I have a CAREER! Holy fuck! Whilst having the potential to make me feel old, I'm going to choose to ignore that and have it make me feel awesome.

I have work e-mails. Meetings. Clients. Dead lines.

And while sometimes those things suck...I personally am finding it more and more killer each and everyday.

Except when I can't sleep and I have to get up early the next day. Then it's not really so awesome.

God, why did I let this weekend mess up my sleep cycle? Back to the daily grind with my working self. But I'm happy about it, and I can say that with honesty.